10.04.2012

this week...

has left me feeling out of focus, foggy in the head, slightly disillusioned
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incredibly overwhelmed and off balance.
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overall, this week has not been good. and believe me i tried (and still am trying) to look at all the things to be grateful for in my life. i know they are too many to count but sometimes no matter how hard you try it still doesn't help. thankfully, i have a night off tonight to be alone! this doesn't happen ever so i plan on using the time to my advantage. i know for sure i will be going to church for some silence, prayer and a much needed confession and after that who knows! possibly a cup of coffee and some reading at a coffee shop? i don't think i've done that in a good 13 years (i am not exaggerating). i would love to browse through a book store also. anyway, i promise i will enjoy those few hours and most certainly will return home with a renewed spirit and a MUCH better attitude. lord knows the children and ruben will appreciate that!

these pictures were from a couple weeks ago when marianne and i had on mother daughter laura ashley floral rompers. they are different prints but the same otherwise :D

♥anne 

p.s.- this was my theme song for the week. :D ok, i don't really feel that way about ALL people...just some.

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  1. that is the PERFECT song when you're feeling down, for so many reasons. i am so sorry you've had a difficult week. my heart goes out to you, in a big huge hug of love and support. as a mother now, i know that life is more poignant, moodier, harder and also more beautiful when you have a little life (4 lives in your case!) depending on you. i hope that your few hours off tonight help you feel better. as a side note, you look SO ADORABLE in that romper and so does marianne. you are such an incredible woman and mama.

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  2. Thanks heather :) too bad I can't drive up and have a cup of coffee (or better yet a beer) with you and chat about the highs and lows of life :)

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  3. Hang in there Anne. I have these weeks(months) sometimes too. When you cant even pee without a 2 yr old barging in on you in starts to wear you down. As moms we really do need that special time to ourselves. I don't even run to the store without one of my kids lately, its like I forget how to be me! BUT keep in mind that feeling overwhelmed, "foggy in the head, slightly disillusioned" means that you are working really hard as a mother and wife :) Its also usually the beginning to a really great idea, or embarkment onto something great.

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    1. "Its also usually the beginning to a really great idea, or embarkment onto something great." i sure hope so shannon!!! :D thank you for your kind words.

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  4. I've been feeling some of that myself this week. Sorry to hear it's been such a rough one for you :( I hope the alone time is helping, it sounds really nice actually! Wait a minute... this alone time doesn't include Marianne, does it? ;)

    You two are ADORABLE in your matching rompers (I want matching rompers for me and Clover now), this whole series of pics is so cute.

    Hang in there mama. Seriously, I often feel overwhelmed with just one, I commend you!

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    1. hahaha! no, i was truly alone this time :D you're funny!

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  5. Oh, Nick Cave. He always gets it right, doesn't he?

    I think there is so much pressure on us, as mothers, to always put on a cheerful face. But IT IS OKAY to have these days. Weeks, even!

    You have a beautiful family, and a beautiful blog! I'm off to check out more.

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  6. Yes sometimes, life is just plain hard. And people have ways of making it just that bit more difficult. I'm glad you have your faith to help you gain grounding, and coffee, and books, and one night alone. Isn't that sometimes all we want (as mamas), just some space and to be left alone. (not that i'd trade my life or kids or anything, but it is so rare to have time just being a person that no one wants anything from). Anne my impression of you is that you are a thoughtful, peaceful, and kind person that can Rock a Party....all that goodness you have to going to attract some great stuff right back at you soon. xoxo Take care hon.

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    1. yes, time alone is quite necessary! and i sure hope to be attracting some great stuff! i better get out of my poopy mood though so the good stuff can start flowin' :D and rockin' parties...yes! hahaha! reading everyone's nice comment has definitely lifted my spirits. thank you :D

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  7. love the honesty...

    nice to meet your blog. : )
    xo
    c

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  8. Oh hon. Yep. Sometimes you just can't put a positive spin on things, when they appear wave after wave after wave, and that
    just fine, because as crummy and tear inducing as those days are, they're the necessary counter-balance to all that good stuff you mentioned, the blessings we all have. I agree with all that you are an amazing, gracious, gentle woman and mama and I have a deep admiration for you m'dear. For one thing, I love that your alone time includes time with God and prayer. Hearing that is a good reminder to pay more attention to the needs of your tired spirit and not just body (aka. sit down, eat potatoes with brewer's yeast and watch the X-files ;), when one is feeling down.

    Much love to you dear and I hope your alone time and cup of coffee are marvelous.

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    1. thank you milla! and i would love to eat potatoes and watch the x files (with you preferably)! sounds pretty perfect right about now :D i did have a nice night and am feeling a bit better today. thank you friend.

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  9. Sometimes things are crap : ) and all we can do is notice how crap they are, accept the crappyness and most importantly know it will change. So feel for you today, those days, weeks ...years.......are our greatest challenge. Sounds like you have a good plan of action though. I wish you well in your prayer and your quietude and coffee/browsing. Hope you will fil us in on what will be quite momentous it sounds, to be alone.

    xxxxxx

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    1. thank you elizabeth. when i know what other people like you have been through i feel horrible even complaining. i guess just accepting the crappy days for what they are is the best one can do. i think i need to get to tapping :D especially since i know why i'm upset. why do we sometimes enjoy wallowing in misery???

      i'm looking forward to november!!!

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  10. Oh, man. So sorry you have been having a rough time. I call it the early-autumn blues. I think it is going around the blogosphere... maybe contagious? Hope tomorrow brings new light and a clear head. I am more than slightly envious of your night out alone! I know how you feel about somehow forgetting how to be yourself.

    Oh, and you should never feel guilty about having a bad day... it's just that! Sending good energy to you!

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  11. Despite the off balance, you are getting out and playing with your lil guys which seems to always help me! That little dusty romper bottom on Marianne is ridiculously cute!!! I'm super glad you got some alone time- it really is necessary for us to stay healthy mentally and remember who we are, AND gives Ruben a chance to bond with his babes in his own way too! Good and good! Hope to see you fellas soon!

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  12. If you want your ex-girlfriend or ex-boyfriend to come crawling back to you on their knees (even if they're dating somebody else now) you gotta watch this video
    right away...

    (VIDEO) Have your ex CRAWLING back to you...?

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anne